I am going to make a series of blog posts about my personal journey of self discovery and improvement. I am a female who is twenty-two years old and trying to look for myself. If you must know I am Asian and so my dynamics may be quite different from other cultures.
Short background of my story: I am the eldest in my family. I had once dreamt of becoming a beauty queen. I am currently lost in my life. I took up Political Science, tried to study law and realized it was not for me. I have no interest in working for our government because I do not believe that it would help provide my career needs and I am against serving such corrupt system.
I was once a very happy and outgoing person. Never would I have thought that I would lose myself. I had the path paved and I was going to make my parents proud and make myself proud. I have discovered that I have done nothing to actually find out who I want to be. But I have always tried to be what everyone wants me to be. I am admittedly so lost and I would like to share my journey because I want others who are in my position to know that they are not alone.
I do not know yet how I will discover myself but I will first start with the basics. I will gain back my SELF-ESTEEM. I lost it along the way. I gained so much weight and let myself go. Nothing I want to wear fits me well anymore. I am embarrassed to go out with my friends because I know I could do better and I feel people would just talk about how fat I have become. Sometimes I ask myself how come I allowed this to happen. I did not take care of myself. I am so young yet allowed opportunities to.slip away.
Please be warned images in this series may be graphical, but I want to be open and honest and real.
These are the three women that I find beautiful. I have always admired their looks and their style. They are my style icons. It is good to have a goal. I didn’t have one before but I think.making my style icons a goal would maybe give me a boost to better myself.
Below you will see present images of my body.
I am 5 feet 7 inches and weigh 161 lbs. I hope to LOSE 20 LBS. Before college I weighed 117 lbs, over the span of 5 years I have gained 44 lbs.
Loving yourself matters. It is what will drive your life. I need to be healthy so that I could do more and gain back that strength I used to have.
Join me on my journey! And if you would like to create a series of blog posts that would also show your journey that would be great!
I will be posting daily my food intake, exercises and other activities that I do on this journey. I wish you guys all the best 🙂