Journey to FINDING ME

I am going to make a series of blog posts about my personal journey of self discovery and improvement. I am a female who is twenty-two years old and trying to look for myself. If you must know I am Asian and so my dynamics may be quite different from other cultures.

Short background of my story: I am the eldest in my family. I had once dreamt of becoming a beauty queen. I am currently lost in my life. I took up Political Science, tried to study law and realized it was not for me. I have no interest in working for our government because I do not believe that it would help provide my career needs and I am against serving such corrupt system.

I was once a very happy and outgoing person. Never would I have thought that I would lose myself. I had the path paved and I was going to make my parents proud and make myself proud. I have discovered that I have done nothing to actually find out who I want to be. But I have always tried to be what everyone wants me to be. I am admittedly so lost and I would like to share my journey because I want others who are in my position to know that they are not alone.

I do not know yet how I will discover myself but I will first start with the basics. I will gain back my SELF-ESTEEM. I lost it along the way. I gained  so much weight and let myself go. Nothing I want to wear fits me well anymore. I am embarrassed to go out with my friends because I know I could do better and I feel people would just talk about how fat I have become. Sometimes I ask myself how come I allowed this to happen. I did not take care of myself. I am so young yet allowed opportunities to.slip away.

Please be warned images in this series may be graphical, but I want to be open and honest and real.

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These are the three women that I find beautiful. I have always admired their looks and their style. They are my style icons. It is good to have a goal. I didn’t have one before but I think.making my style icons a goal would maybe give me a boost to better myself.

Below you will see present images of my body.

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I am 5 feet 7 inches and weigh 161 lbs. I hope to LOSE 20 LBS. Before college I weighed 117 lbs, over the span of 5 years I have gained 44 lbs.

Loving yourself matters. It is what will drive your life. I need to be healthy so that I could do more and gain back that strength I used to have.

Join me on my journey! And if you would like to create a series of blog posts that would also show your journey that would be great!

I will be posting daily my food intake, exercises and other activities that I do on this journey. I wish you guys all the best ๐Ÿ™‚

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2 thoughts on “Journey to FINDING ME

  1. Hi, I find your blog interesting. I just started blogging recently and I just want to have a storage of my writings. I’m also 22 years old and I have been working in the government for more than a year now. I started during the latter part of the Aquino administration, and now I’m still here under the Duterte administration. Don’t get me wrong, I’m not going to defend the government to you. I did not expect myself to enter public service because even before I graduated I really want to enter the glamorous field of PR and Advertising, I studied communications back in college. I first worked in a private Marketing company, then a PR company. Unfortunately, it was not glamorous at all. I met a lot of unkind, vain, treacherous people while working for these companies. Most of the people I met, only care for the income of the company, or themselves and I find it unfulfilling. Like there’s something missing, like I’m not giving out my best potential. Then luckily I found an open position in the government which really fit my skills. So far, my experience here is really fulfilling, not a second of my time is wasted. If you’re a rank and file in a government agency, you don’t serve at the pleasure of the President, nor the highest gov’t officials. You serve at the pleasure, interest of the people of the Philippines. I always look forward to waking up everyday and working because I know that even if I’m just a little chip in a big machinery called the gov’t, in my own little ways, I am helping to make this country a little better. Madalas nga we’re not well compensated, minsan abono pa. Ang gamit dito luma, mahirap maka-secure ng bagong gamit for work kasi madaming proseso. Our families and friends can attest to the times we spent at work, sometime we are not able to attend important family celebrations, because of time we dedicate just to accomplish our work. Pero ika nga nila, “para sa bayan”, sounds corny and pretentious but it’s true. Plus, I get to meet and interact with a lot of people which in my entire life I never imagine na makaka-usap o makaktrabaho ko. I get to go to places, and meet and discuss with people on the ground. Unlike with private companies, you are kind of detached with the reality, with what’s happening in our country. I’m really lucky because my colleagues are young, full of ideas, and enthusiastic. They are the ones who help me hit the ground running since day one.

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    1. Hello Mary ๐Ÿ™‚ Sorry, I didn’t mean to insult the government. It was just based on my experience. I am sad you had a bad experience in the private sector. I wish you all the best in government ๐Ÿ™‚ I am glad that there are people like you who are willing to help the Filipino people and be of service. Thank you!

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